Pride

I have realized something that is in my heart recently. I think you can call it pride. Pride in my good deeds. Pride in My "Christian" Life. I look at my life and I think by the worlds standards, I have lived a really good life this far. And I find myself viewing myself like that too. I see myself better than I see other people and it has scared me this week. I need God so bad in my life and I can do nothing in my own strength. Sometimes I just get SO frustrated because I don't live the way that I should and because I look at myself through the worlds eyes instead of God's eyes. If there is one thing that I learn while I am hear at Moody, I would want to learn how to get out of the church culture that I hold onto so dearly and see myself for what I truly am; A wretched sinner, saved by the mighty hand of God and not by my good deeds.

Father in Heaven- May you work in me until I die to myself and chase after you. I am made new by your sacrifice and may I live a life, looking to you for worth and not myself because you are the giver of life.